So I finally figured out what I wanted to say in response to Lorenzo’s not-too-happy reply. It took me a few days, but it’s good I didn’t reply too soon. I don’t want to lose a friend over his inability to process his own intentions. I was doing perfectly fine before Lorenzo reentered my life. I just wanted to offer him an exit back to normal. There are some advantages to having him in my life even if at a distance. Here it goes:
I don’t want to argue with you.
I didn’t mean any offense by the therapy comment. Just thought it might help. Not in relation to me, just in general. I didn’t mean for it to come off as though you were just “anybody.” You did make my heart flutter.
I just want to go back to where we were when you were just checking in, and saying hi, back in March. Before you invited me to Australia and suggested we Skype because I can’t promise I won’t want something again, and you aren’t offering up more now.
I think we will survive this.
I have to honestly say though I’m glad I said something about everything from back then and now. I feel better.
I hope we can go back to being friends.
to which he simply replied:
I hope so too.
So that’s it.
For the little bit of time in there when he was consistent with his communication, making suggestions for “us” and “we,” wanting to see me on Skype, liking photos of me on Facebook and commenting on my status updates after a year and a half of nothing, it felt good to think he’d come around. K.